Whats going on!!

Hello my lovely blog!! Today is FRIDAY!!! Thank heavens!! It took all the strength in my 5 foot body to get out of bed this morning! Whew! Well for a brief update let me see... Well, Damien and I have officially separated. Yes.. he has moved out. It was what needed to happen. We were arguing just waaaay too much and besides the intimacy and all that has dissolved years ago between us! It was just time to move on. So the only downside to him being gone of course is me footing the bills for EVERYTHING! Mortgage, Lights, Gas, Food, Phone, transportation..etc. So yea it's a lot! Oh and lets not forget the fact that he was the COOK! so fuck yea i am missing all the good eats and shit! I may have to invest in one of those Converter ovens that cooks whole meals in like 20 minutes straight from the freezer! Only because by the time i get home its close to 9pm! I be tired as hell! i don't feel like cooking nada! ..But the baby can't eat Mcdonalds and Popeyes every dam night!..So yea I've got to figure something out. Speaking of my baby boy..he is doing just fine! Getting bigger and taller! He's gonna be tall like his uncles i can tell! I've been searching for a new gig! With Damien gone i'll definitely need more money! Even though that little bit of money that i was able to squeeze out of his ass wasn't shit! I told him that he would have to give me $300 a month for Gavin ($150 every two weeks) so we'll see! I would hate to have to take him to child support, but i will if i have too! He's just too inconsistent! So last weekend was my H.S reunion. I went to some of the festivities and it was just nice to see everyone 10yrs later. Some people gained weight..some lost. Some even lost hair!..lol! I'm like dam! WTF happened?.. But anyway on Friday night the "Meet & Greet" was held at a club called "Juniors". So i go with my buddy Edress and we were having a good time. I had a few drinks and was feeling gooooood! So i see my ex-friends that DONT talk to me (Alesha, Shawndia and Tanesha) sitting against the wall. I go over being my usual breezy self and ask jokingly, "What yall having a Glamour Girl Meeting?" Just talking shit! I aint mean no harm at all. Anyways Alesha sloppy ass goes in!.. Like, "Aint nobody on that!..Aint nobody said shit to you....yadda yadda..yadda!" I mean pissed off! So clearly this big bitch is still mad at me ova some shit that happened last JUNE!!..lol! Girl let that shit goooooo!! So anyway she got her hands all in my face and everything!..lmao! Like she is really bad! So i slap her hand out my face and "Patty" another girl that we went to H.S with hauls off and punches me in the face!.. I couldn't believe it! I had never had an issue with Patty! so needless to say it was complete pandamonium in the place! I was flabbergasted! The picnic was that Sunday tho and Patty made her way over to me to apologize. I accepted the apology since i felt it was sincere and again i never had an issue with her! I guess she was protecting her amazonian BFF Alesha!..lmao! It's all good tho.. they can stay mad..i'm good! Bubba came and saw me on lunch last week in his drop top Benz and we was styling and profiling on Michigan avenue! People were looking like, "What that Black girl doing with that Asian boy!"..lol! Whateva! Bubba to quiet tho! I just take the lack of conversation as a muthafucka not really being interested! So thanks for the Ride and the spliff Bubba but, umm your number has been deleted..Sowwie..:( I go see my sissy this weekend! Yay!! Going to go and get my hair done for this LA trip on the 23rd. Burundi is s'pose to be sending for me..we'll see. He talk so much shit! He did put some money in my account for me last week tho, so we'll see what happens. I already put the time in at work so im ready!..Just waiting on him! If he fake me out i'm calling my buddy "Say-So" since he's in Vegas. See if he can send for me so i can come hang out down there with him for a weekend! I've started writing a second novel and its Gooooooood! I'm gonna start the process to get the first one published finally! I'm adamant about being progressive this year and getting things DONE! Okay that's my piece on this Friday afternoon PEACE!..:)

"You Better Leave Me"

http://youtu.be/zKsai_KiTiU I looove this song! Found it on another site called "Soul Bounce" and i am hooked!! Love how he flipped the whole script and made a song entitled "You better Leave me!" Man that is innovative! I'm mad as hell that i didn't come up with that first!..lol! I'm definitely inspired tho! Gonna see if i can play around with some words in my head and come up with something along similar lines! Dopeness!! I love it!!! :))

Beyonce “Till the End of Time” MP3

Beyonce “Till the End of Time” MP3 Hola!! I just heard this new Beyonce track on "TheFAder" and I Love it!! Great little summer song!! I can see me dancing to this come July 4th night!.:))

Moody Monday

Hola! Today i am not in the best of spirits. The weekend was actually pretty chill. I got out on Friday and hung out a bit with Kawanee and then BigMika it was cool. Saturday and Sunday the weather sucked major ass so i stayed in. So the thing that pissed me off this morning was the fact that Damien's ass complimented our4yr old at least 3 times this morning and didnt bother to say anything to me! Then on top of that he opens the door as we're leaving and yells, "Bye Gavin have a good day!" Okay like the baby is taking his fucking self to school you know?! Like how dam rude! You can't even say "Goodbye, have a good day" to me?.. That shit hurts my fucken feelings! Like is it really to the point where you can't say those small kind words to me?.. As much shit as i have to do! Get up at 7 iron me and Gavin's clothes, feed him!.. get him clean and dressed and ready for school! Wait on the bus..get off the bus take him in the school, wait BACK on the bus just so i can head downtown to work! All this shit EVERY DAM DAY and i can't get a "Have a good day?!" BULLSHIT!! I called that asshole and told him, "If i cant even get your ass to say "Good morning have a nice day" to me, then you really need to be getting up out my shit! Dam! I'm just so tired of being un happy, not loved, or tounched or even talked to for that matter! That "Get out" shit is played and i'm tired of even saying the shit! I just want a new start! Please Lord Help ME!! What the hell am I s'pose to be doing???? So lastweek sometime i viewed an apartment not to far from where i live. It was a 2bdrm for 750 a month which includes heat! The place wasn't anything to scream about, but it was quaint and affordable. I called the guy this morning and he told me that i've got it! I'm so afraid of making the wrong move! But i do know that if i continue living the way im living i'll continue to be unhappy and behind and miserable! I dont want that life!.. I'm tired of it.. I was taking my baby to school lastweek and this guy stopped in his car trying to talk to me. His name is Cornellius and he's a bit older and retired! So i gave him my # and the pussy calls me EVERY DAM DAY!! Like what the fuck dude! Slow the fuck down shit!! His old ass called me the whole dam weekend but I had my phone on silent and didn't feel like talking to his ass! So today i get to work and he calls, I figure i'd answer since the motherfucker called me about 20 dam times! So i answer and he's like, "This is Cornellius and i was looking for Ms. Ebony". So I'm like, "Ebony" my name isn't "Ebony. So this dumb ass instead of simply apologizing and saying, "Oh i'm sorry love and proceed from there, this dipshit tells me, "Well that's what you told me your name was.". I'm looking at my phone like what??.. GTFOH! I aint told you know shit like that! I said, "No i never told you that!" He's like, "Well im not about to argue with you, but that's what you told me!". Okay so i was already in a pissy ass mood and this old fuck just added to it! Hell naw you aint gotta argue with me about nothing asshole! Get the fuck off my line! I hung up in his dam face! Stop playing with me dude! And so "Bubba" is back on the scene..i guess.. *Shrugs*. He text me "Hey Spicy Lips" last week while i was here at work. We chatted for a bit and he told me that he's on crutches right now. Poor thang. So we made a date to link up tomorrow, but im gonna cancel. Tired of hanging out with these bullshit ass niccas! I need to find my happy place! And i'm just not in a mood to be entertaining some shit that's going absolutely nowhere!! Plus i don't talk to him enough to be going out "Hanging" with him! So Fuck Damien, Fuck Cornellius thirsty dumb ass and Fuck Bubba's fat ass too! I'm done with them all!!

I am loving this lil song!..

Werk B.S

Hey there!.. Well I am at this place called "Werk" and I just had to nip some shit in the bud! Now i've mentioned to 2 of my co-workers before that all the whispering and giggling that they do in the office is beyond rude! So both of them had the whole "Wide Eye" look when i brought it to them before and claimed that, I was tripping. So i thought hey maybe i was! But this morning I come in and they start it up again with all the whispering and shit so i called their asses out on it! I said, "All that whispering and shit that yall do is Rude!" So one co-worker, actually the one that was doing the whispering didn't utter a word. But the other one "Danielle" said, "She was tryna tell me something and it had nothing to do with you". I'm like, "How the hell do i know that?" The shit is just rude! Just cut it out PERIOD!! Dam! Talking about, "But we grown". Well Act like it! Geesh! So moving on from that. Let's see... Umm last week I went out to Woodridge to visit Charisma. She's got a nice place..she's trying to move tho. So yea i hung out with her for a lil bit. That shit with "Bubba's" ass may be over! He's stood me up not once but twice right now! So i'm positive that it won't be a third time! Asshole. Dame and I haven't been talking very much.. *Shrug* there's just not much to say anymore I guess. Oh last weekend Me, Timika and Erica took babysistah "Stasha" out for her 20th birthday! Man I can remember that girl being 7 when i first met Damien and now she's 20!! *Sniff* So grown up! And such a good girl! We went to "Mr. Browns Lounge" in the WestLoop and she had a few drinks and was feeling gooooood!..lol! She snagged the finest mofo in the club that night too!..lmao!! Good Stuff!.. Well that's about all i got to gossip about today.. Oh yea Osama Bin Laden is DEAD!! I'm not one to celebrate anyones death, but yea he's outta here! Oh well that's my piece on this hump day Peace!!..:))

Sooo played!!

so i made a video about things that are still said and done that are so fuccen PLAYED!!.. lol! I was highly annoyed!!..